Like many other bloggers, I will start this blog off by saying it has been forever since my last post. And what a life-shattering post it was, that last one.

The Light Stuff:
- Itunes Genius is GENIUS. This thing makes playlists way better than any of the ones I ever made. It looks like a machine is better at understanding my music tastes than I am.
- My family has been keeping life to the minimal acceptable level of interestingness. My mom and sister aren't talking and they don't even know who started it (story of their lives!). My dad got diagnosed with diabetes and created a very cost-effective way to deal with it. He became a medical guinea pig and now they're paying him! This is a good year for him I guess because he's getting Social Security as of next month. I filled out the forms for him online... "So when was the last time you "worked", ie paid taxes?" "That'd be 1986." Ha. Between Sarah and I we have a LOT of discounts at various stores.
-My identity may have been stolen. And my bank refuses to talk to me.

The Life Updates:
- Since my last post I moved to Santa Cruz for the summer, moved back, and then moved to Seattle. A LOT of moving. And I'll tell you, I never ever wanna do it again!
- I'm highly employed but pretty underemployed. Two retail jobs and an online tutoring job is what a Bachelor's in Nuclear/Particle Physics gets you these days, kids! I was briefly being considered for a real job but blew my chances at that by getting in a horrible fight with James like 20 minutes before my interview (not my fault whatsoever).
- Starting to feel a little more comfortable at my jobs. The first month was rough and I assumed that it would be easy, but there is honestly a lot more to it than folding things and ringing up stuff. I still feel like my brain is melting away though.
- My apartment is starting to feel slightly like a home. This may be because the many incarnations of appalling messiness it has gone through.
- Nasty Seattle weather is starting to poke its little nose into my life. Fall is coming to a close here, and what a beautiful Fall it was.

That's all because it is no earlier than 3:17am and I'm sure tomorrow I will have to delete incoherent parts of this post.

Oh, and I'm gonna be legal soon!

I have an addiction, and its not Dr.Pepper.
1. Enzymion Moisturizer
2. Angels on Bare Skin
3. Karma Soap
4. Extra Virgin Olive Soap
5. 17 Cherry Tree Lane
6. Red Rooster Soap
7. Queen of Hearts Complexion Soap
8. Temptation Soap
9. The Sicilian Bath Bomb
10. Youki Hi Bath Bomb
11. Happy Bubble Bar
12. Catastrophe Cosmetic
13. Brazened Honey
14. Love Lettuce

I'm such a loser.

ZOMG, I am using the new baby laptop! It is so incredibly small. and blue! not used to the tiny keyboard yet though. Wireless works great just out of box, i think this OS is actually not too bad, but i am not entirely sure yet. My mom is using my current computer, amazing!!

I sit awake, for the second night in a row, waiting to hear the break-in and to see the ghoulish face standing over me.

And then I lay silently for several minutes, in the pitch black, trying to convince myself that gruesome murders of entire families in the middle of the night are awfully rare. And anyway, who would want to kill us all?
But after a few minutes, my brain loses and my growing fear takes over as shapes materialize and vaporize in the darkness.

Why am I so scared? No one has ever broken in here, yet I am convinced that on one of the few nights I am here, it will happen. In fact, several hours ago, convinced that someone had gotten in the side door, I woke my mom up and made her check with me. Of course, no one was there and our easily-spooked cats were still fast asleep.

What the hell is wrong with me?

UCDLJ is full of fucking retards.

I had everything all planned out for my trip. My flight is Sept 12th, 10:50 a.m. out of SFO. The plan was to go home for a few days, then go down to Santa Rosa on the 9th or 10th and drive to SFO with James and his parents. Now I'm told that I have to leave from Sacramento because ALL OF THE SUDDEN, it is so important that my family (that never visits me anyway) see me off on my flight. With the longer drive, I now have to wake up at 3 a.m. on the 12th and deal with a cranky family. I can already imagine my mom frantically asking me if I have everything I need, etc. And then I have to attempt finding James in the hoards of people that will be at an unfamiliar airport. "You'll be able to find him, you have cell phones." Newsflash, my cellphone service ends on Sept 9th and I will be unable to communicate with him. And anyway, nobody even cared about this when I had planned the flight in May, and now all the members of the family seem to be getting teary-eyed about me leaving when they had no problem virtually ignoring me for the last three years.
My plans have been ruined.

i am bored.

I am also copying this because I am bored!

In 2007...
Where did you begin 2007?
Playing poker at an old friend's house...waiting for my lame-o boyfriend to get out of the bathroom when the clock struck midnight.

What was your status by Valentine's Day?
Looking for a way out.

Were you in school (anytime this year)?
yesss

Did you have to go to the hospital?
yes, I broke a bone in my foot in May.

Did you have any encounters with the police?
nope

Where did you go on vacation?
definitely nowhere so far

What did you purchase that was over $500?
Deposit on my apartment

Did you know anybody who got married?
A girl from my dorms. I was not invited to the wedding.

Did you know anybody who passed away?
nope

Did you move anywhere?
fountain circle

What sporting events did you attend?
none

Describe your birthday:
mostly depressing.

What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did in 2007?
I drank alcohol. Not enough to feel it, but more than a sip.

What has been your favorite moment(s)?
hanging out with the guys at lakeshore, seeing the ocean for the first time in several years, sep 17th at like 3am, and about 4 hours ago when I almost laughed myself to death.

What's something you learned about yourself?
I am such a doormat and no one listens to anything I say. I should speak up because I matter too.

Any new additions to your family?
my sister got a new cat, I met it today.

What was your best month?
most of spring quarter and september.

What music will you remember from 2007?
Eisley, Frou Frou, Shiny Toy Guns, that stupid The Way I Are song.

Made new friends?
Not really any lasting ones...

New Best friend?
I actually lost one and haven't found a new one.

Favorite Night out?
Attempting to go ice skating after my last final. We didn't, but hanging out was pretty great.

Any regrets?
A few, I try to think of it as some bigger scheme though.

What do you want to change in 2008?
I want to tell people what I want and have them listen. I want better grades. I also want to finish/start this damn application to go to edinburgh (and also go there!)

Overall, how would you rate this year?
Some parts were really great, some kinda sucked.

What would you change about 2007?
I wish I hadn't hurt people. I'd also go back and fix my tests so I would get better grades, haha.

Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
On campus or at restaurants.

Have any life changes in 2007?
Oh yes.

Change your hairstyle?
I cut it once in April and lost my glasses that day. It wasn't a huge change, so meh.

Have any car accidents?
Surprisingly, no. But I feel like we've cut it close many times.

Buy a new car?
Definitely not.

New BF/GF?
Yes, 2. Only one was worth keeping though.

Get a new job?
Yeah, but I quit in a record short amount of time. I also got a tutoring job, but its like $35/month.ha!

Do you have a New Year's resolution?
Not yet...I shall formulate some in the coming days.

Do anything embarrassing?
I misspeak ALL the time.

Buy anything new from eBay?
Don't use eBay.

What was your favorite purchase of 2007?
eh, I didn't buy anything remarkable this year. Mostly food and some clothes.

Get married or divorced?
Not ready for either of those.

Get arrested?
Only by the fashion police ;)

Be honest - did you watch American Idol?
Nope.

Did you get sick this year?
I have not been sick in exactly one year! yay!

Start a new hobby?
Eating out all the time. Breaking hearts. Ruining people's lives, including my own.

Been snowboarding?
No.

Drank Starbucks in 2007?
That's my other hobby :-/

Are you happy to see 2007 go?
Sorta, but the good things that happened I think will last through 2008 :)

merp. i am almost 19.

Classes I want to take:
PHY 108, 110A-B-C, 115A-B, 121, 126, 129A, 130A-B, 137,140A-B, 215A-B-C, MAT 115A.
I realize this is too many classes (and not to mention the ones I must take but do not care about).
Crap.

For all the suns that have set and all the doors that have closed...

feelin' alright.

murder on the block, though. icky icky. its hush hush on the dl.

...

i'm outta here.

NO

or can you actually play guitar? you horrible shell of a musician.

i feel like being random. i want to build a fort and swing from the trees and have leaves in my hair. yes, i have lost it.

i want to dance with someone and not have them judge me for looking like an idiot. i think i am going to turn my living room into a bonfire and dance around it like a jungle person.

I woke up this morning thinking that one of my sisters had died. I dreamt that I went to her funeral but kept leaving for inexplicable reasons. All the sudden I would be so far away and think, "Oh my goodness, I'm going to miss her eulogy!!!" and then I would run in the direction I thought the funeral was but I couldn't seem to get there. So much time was passing. I just kept sobbing uncontrollably. Everyone I passed thought I was crazy, even when I explained to them that my sister just died, they acted as if crying was out of order. And then I'd be climbing a mountain. It was terrible; I don't think I could deal with a family member dying.

Also, I was wearing James' glasses the entire time. Dreams are strange.


I'm wondering if I should interpret last night's encounter with a stranger to be creepy or to be really kind. No wonder people don't try to be nice to strangers anymore, people interpret them all wrong...?

At any rate, I'm thankful that my sister is not dead.

ack. the boredom is KILLING me.
can't possibly do work on a FRIDAY!